有点想你，我是。。。: June 2006

現在, 我只想多愛自己一些些, 可以嗎?

愛情, 確實會帶給人好心情、好氣色,
但是, 相對的, 也會帶來煩惱與憂愁.

其實一個人, 真的真的沒有什麼不好.
我常常覺得, "孤獨"有時候是一件很不錯的事呢!
獨處, 可以有更多時間可以思考, 把混亂的思緒整理清楚,
獨處, 可以有更多自由做喜歡的事, 不必考慮別人的想法.

The easiest way to get detached is to literally get detached using traditional means of removal, disassociate and minimization. Yet the easiest way need not be a painless way.

Perhaps everything will fall into place as time passes.
Time has the power to make everything stronger,
and of course also more dilute.

我討厭最近的自己打從心裡的討厭
好想遠離這個地方
不想再被約束不想再面對這些令我心煩的事
我不是什麼厲害或堅強的人
我只想要好好正常的睡一覺
悠閒的吃頓飯躺在沙發上看電視
享受單純自在的生活

我懂。一路上沉默的令人好害怕
你欲言又止

其實你想說的我都知道
上公車前你拉住我的手
輕輕的說了句對不起
我故作鎮定的微笑
卻克制不住泛紅的眼框
上公車後我已經沒有勇氣再接你的電話
只是懦弱的躲在最後一排落淚
噓什麼都別再說了好嗎

小的時候總是希望能趕快長大
不想再受到控制
想要體驗自由自己決定事情
無拘無束的想去哪就去哪想幹麻就幹麻

於是總自以為是的假裝成熟
覺得那樣很厲害
後來才慢慢發現
長大並沒有想像中那麼有趣
雖然自由但得獨自面對很多事情
不能再任性的要家人處理
做錯事也無法再像孩子般一笑置之
得體驗好多無法預料的事
束手無策的時候自己必須承擔及解決
每次看到他那稚氣的模樣
雖然欠揍但至少他是沒有煩惱的活著
爸說沒有人喜歡長大
因為長大後必須誠實的面對自己
面對未來的挑戰
好壞成敗全靠自己
而長不大卻是無知而非天真
真的嗎? 也許是吧.....

很努力的讓自己的心情維持在穩定的階段
很努力的讓自己浮躁的心安定下來
外在的壓力太多我不得不克服
痘痘一直冒了出來嘴巴也開始破洞
我以為我偽裝的很好
一樣的聊天一樣的玩耍
但隱藏不住內心的疲倦

原来无力感就是这样

感觉好累

没有元气

带着一点失望

没有想法

眼神空洞

是缺少了什么

说不出任何感觉

也许这就是我的无力感

压抑以久的心情不知该向谁倾诉

为有这BLOG陪伴着我

BLOG 啊

对不起我会用心把她写下

对不起我会专心把她写好

对不起我不再让你空白

我不知道你是否有去新加坡大热卖看看，

尤其最近又可狂到午夜11或12点，

人潮汹涌真的是人济人气死人。

在那，你可看到两种人。。

在店里疯狂购物，疯狂选衣，的女人
和
在店外耐心等待，手提纸袋，的男人。

女人 = 一间又一间宁可买错不可放过
男人 = 一间又一间宁可闪过不可回头

女人 = 店内选衣势不两立快手先
男人 = 店外等待目瞪认同好友满天下

女人 = 渴望减价渴望杀价渴望开到天亮
男人 = 渴望高价渴望无价渴望早日打烊

可爱的女人啊。。
男人也可爱啊。。

The difference between Rich & Poor People?

One day, the father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the express purpose of showing him how poor people live.

They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family.
On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?"

"It was great, Dad."

"Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked.

"Oh yeah," said the son.

"So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?"
asked the father.

The son answered:
"I saw that we have one dog and they had four.

We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end.

We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night.

Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon.

We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight.

We have servants who serve us, but they serve others.

We buy our food, but they grow theirs.

We have walls around our property to protect us; they have friends to protect them."

The boy's father was speechless.

Then his son added, "Thanks Dad for showing me how poor we are."

Isn't perspective a wonderful thing? Makes you wonder what would happen if we all gave thanks for everything we have, instead of worrying about what we don't have.
Appreciate every single thing you have, especially your friends!

"Life is too short and friends are too few."