My Christmas eve nite....

It's Christmas Eve...
It's supposed not to be a lonely nite...
But,
i am alone tonite.
But,
i am alone listening to my favourite sultry female vocalist Jazz music...
While enjoying the familar and evocative songs...

I jus can't get her out of my mind.
You know...
food has lost its taste.
Colour... thay seem dull.
Thing that used to matter...
I don't know, they jus no longer do.
I think things aren't gonna snap back, unless I.....